Notice is served. Alice, you’re outta here! Alice has been a lousy tenant – she has caused me excessive pain and immobility. She has stolen my dreams and made my life miserable. Just a few months ago I was able to walk over 20 000 steps a day, and take part in many adventures. Today I have a walker parked near my place on the couch, and a cane on standby. Alice, my arthritic right hip, has to go. And go she will. I’ve been scheduled for hip replacement surgery on January 3 in Kalispell, MT. I can hardly wait!
Unfortunately traveling to the US for surgery is going to be very expensive. But I have little choice. Here, most likely I won’t have a chance at surgery until June, 2018, a year after being seen by my surgeon. I was officially told I need new hip in March, 2017. That means the wait for replacement surgery in our “free” health care system would be over 16 months. I don’t want to even think about how immobile I would be if I waited another 6 months.
I could go on forever about how broken our public heath care system is, but it is fruitless. The problems are embedded so deep it will take over a generation to fix. I only hope that by the time my son needs it, the system will have started back down the right path. Changing a large public organization is harder than pushing an elephant through a pinhole.
In the meantime, we’re going to dip into our retirement funds and take the plunge. Goodby to travel and adventure over the next 5 years. But hello to pain-free living.
I am a relatively health 59 year old woman who suffers from severe osteoarthritis of my hip. I have therefore unfortunately entered the endless cycle of waiting for surgical services in Alberta. I am trying to understand why our wait times are so long, but am having an extremely difficult time finding the right information to explain this backlog. According to my doctor and other front line medical workers, the waits are not due to a lack of staff or facilities. Instead, they are due to a lack of funding for surgeries. Again, I have a difficult time understanding this lack of funding when we have such a healthy budget for healthcare in our province. As you are aware, our province spends $21.4 billion per year on healthcare, or over 45% of the total provincial budget.
I beg of you to please find a way to streamline our system. I know I am just one of the thousands of Albertans who are forced to give up on our dreams, change our lives, and sit back and wait for help for what ails us. I must face the reality of changing my life from a very active and involved community member to someone sidelined by pain. Instead of spending my early retirement years fearlessly taking on new adventures and challenges, volunteering for community events, and so on, I now must face different challenges. Simple tasks have become difficult. Instead of taking pride in parking in the farthest spot from the shopping mall’s doorway so I could get in a few extra steps, I am now looking for a small store with parking close to the door so I can handle the trek in and out of the store. Shopping malls are becoming my enemy, as they are too large to navigate. I now look for a grocery store that has free shopping carts near the doorway so I can lean on the cart while I shop. Instead of going about my daily activities without even a second thought, Going to the bank, taking care of the house, and taking care of the yard have become activities that I have to think carefully about so I can find the most pain-free way to get them done. In other words, at less than 60 years old, I have joined the army of seniors with mobility challenges.
Not only are my daily activities now more difficult, but my health is challenged.
Last year I was very active. I managed to lose weight, reduce my cholesterol and blood pressure, and become a very healthy Albertan, other than what was then moderate arthritis. But this year, reduced mobility is starting to take a toll. When I do walk, my gait is misaligned so my other joints are stressed. I feel my knee and foot starting to suffer. I believe that by the time I have surgery, I will have seriously damaged my other hip, knees, and feet from the stress put on them when I try to compensate for a sore hip. I also am finding it difficult to maintain a high fitness level, leaving me vulnerable to other health challenges. In my opinion, the longer I wait for surgery, the more of a burden I will become to the health care system because of problems resulting from dealing with the pain.
I also ask you to consider the overall decline in my quality of life resulting from an outrageous wait for surgery. I had all sorts of plans for my early retirement years, including finding rewarding part-time work and volunteer activities. I worked hard my whole life so that I could fulfill them. But most of these are now gone. From start to finish, this process will take over two years, including the basic recovery time. I will have lost some of the prime years for reaching my dreams. As an Albertan who has actively contributed to our economy and society, I find this possibility very depressing.
Yes, I know you can argue that I can still find a rewarding life – and yes, I can still be involved in many things, and offer a positive contribution to our society. And yes, I know my problems are small compared to many other very ill Albertans. And you would be right. But that doesn’t mean my plight should be minimized or rationalized. . The ridiculously long wait system has robbed me of my choices, of my plan for my life. I am the one who has to deal with the pain every time I take a step, or move my leg. I am the one who has to deal with a lack of sleep difficult because it is difficult to get comfortable at night. I am the one who has to look longingly at those who simply walk pain free to the neighbour’s house for a visit. I am the one of the many who has to suffer while we hopefully wait for that magical phone call from the surgeon’s office saying that they finally have a date for surgery. I ask you to consider those of us who suffer daily with pain while we wait, and wait, and wait, and wait, and the wait some more, for help from our health care system. I beg of you to find a way to make our system more efficient so that people like me are not face with interminable waits for so-called elective procedures.
I ask you to consider the following information, which I am sure is typical of the thousands of Albertans like me who are stuck in our system. Look at our wait times and ask yourself what you can do to make this insanity stop. http://waittimes.alberta.ca/
FYI – here’s the timeline of my wait:
Date of my initial referral from frontline practitioner: January 16
Date of Diagnostic X-Ray – February 21
Date of Diagnosis through Chinook Bone and Joint Clinic – March 16
Date of Initial Surgeon Appointment: June
Probable number of weeks before surgery after June appointment: 48 – 60 (10 – 14 months)
Total anticipated wait time from initial referral: 80 – 90 weeks, or 20 months, or almost 2 years.
Full recovery time – 6 months to 1 year
Total time lost: As long as 2.5 to 3 years from initial referral to full recovery
It’s official. Alice faces an eviction notice. Sometime in the next ten months Alice will be out of my life forever. Recently she as caused me great pain and suffering. Her fickleness a robbed me of vitality . She has lulled me into a sense off fake hope, only to viciously turning me faster than Trump turned on his cronies.
Nevertheless, I will be a little sad to see her go. She as been with me for many years, all my life in fact. She supported me through childbirth, bore the brunt of the burden on my Yukon adventure, and kept me company on a daily basis. Before she turned nasty, she was there for me while I recently finally grew into the person I always dreamed of being.
I didn’t think she paid much attention to me but obviously she was listening when, I pronounced to the universe upon my retirement that I would try to “do it all” in the next 3 year, before my body gave out on me. Perhaps she was jealous and couldn’t stand to see my success. So, out of seer spite, over the last year, and true to my unfortunate prophecy, she began to turn on me – the nasty parasite. Her actions were insidious, building intensity slowly. I, like the proverbial frog in the frying pan, didn’t realize what she was doing until it was too late. A little ache here, a sharp pain there, a grinding, popping noise everywhere – the symptoms soon grew in intensity. So much that a few months ago, she almost incapacitated me.
My harsh awakening came on while I was carrying out an otherwise mundane task one cool January day. Up until a few weeks before that date, I still dreamed of grand retirement adventures – hiking the West Coast Trail next summer, tackling the legendary El Camino trail with my sister, and of tackling the many mountain trails near our vacation property. No dream was too big for me – until Alice sought her revenge.
The need for Alice’s eviction smacked me in the face when I found myself in tears in the grocery aisle. I had to pick up paper towels, but they were 5 rows away. I didn’t think I could walk that far, as I was debilitated by her pain. At that moment, I knew I had joined the legions of seniors who grasp desperately to their shopping carts for support the moment they enter a grocery store – who seek the parking spot closest to the door so they don’t have to walk so far. Who most certainly have no place on steep mountain trails.
Thus began my final journey to have Alice evicted – in other words, I knew I needed a new right hip. I decided to call my hip “Alice” so in a few months I can proudly declare “Alice doesn’t live here anymore”.
And it is now official. I am on the countdown. Sometimes in the next 10 months I will undergo a full hip replacement. I know I will be fine once it is done, and my healing is complete. But this disease has slowly robbed me of many retirement dreams. I waited too long to really run a marathon, too long to hike the West Coast Trail, too long to tackle many of the physical challenges I had dreamed of meeting. I know I will have to find other dreams to replace these – and ultimately I will. But in the meantime, I will allow myself a little time to mourn the change. I have to face reality – that I am soon going to be 60 years old, and I have osteoarthritis – a disease that will continue to slowly pick away at my physical vitality. The dreams of my youth need to fade away and make room for dreams more suited to this new phase of life.
I’ve decided that a positive unanticipated outcome of our long healthcare waiting list is that it is giving me time to adapt to the change. I am having the proper mourning time to adjust to my new reality. I am slowly experiencing a gradual shift in outlook. I know I
will still find metaphorical mountains to climb and will be just fine. In the meantime, i am trying to stay as active and healthy as I can so I have the strength to face what comes – and the desire to find a new reality that will be just as fulfilling as the one I thought I would have.
So, sometime in the next 10 months – watch for the final eviction notice. Stay tuned!
Growing old is not for the wimpy, the weak, or whiny. Aging is tough. It steals your dreams and ambitions and saps your energy. It is simply stinking hard work.
I don’t know how my mom has lived through it. She is 88 years young, and suffers from severe osteoarthritis. She’s had two new knees and a hip, and is way overdo for more. But alas, a few years ago she aged out. A victim of the system, she was passed off again and again, told to come back next year – that her pain was simply bursitis. Never mind that the arthritis that was the root cause of it. Month long waits for calls simply to make appointments seeped into more weeks, then months before even being called to get on the list for an appointment. Slowly, painfully, the time leached into two years before she even was taken seriously for a replacement. But by then it was too late. She was too old and too weak. Those years of inactivity lead to extra weight, and more joint problems exasperated by the extra burden. Soon high blood pressure reared its ugly head and she was doomed to an endless cycle of “You’re not quite bad enough yet. Come back in 6 months and we’ll see if you are ready. Although the doctors never came out and said a flat out “no”, we all knew she was being passed over. That her quality of life was measured by standards of statistics and numbers – that younger patients would get priority in an over-stressed health care system inundated with again boomers and their parents. Now, well over 10 years later the new hip is now old, the other hip is totally shot, and the knees are due for updates. She is left with increasing low back pain, a horrible lop-sided limp that creates even more imbalances and pain, and no hope for any real relief.
Yet every day she gets up, plans what she will make for dinner, does some cleaning around the house, and takes part in her many volunteer activities. She still drives the ladies to the monthly CNIB meeting, making sure they all get at least one outing each month. She takes part in CWL activities, making phone calls to organize things when she can’t actually do the physical work anymore. This year she sent out almost 100 Christmas cards. She checks her Facebook regularly on her “gadget” – the Samsung tablet we bought her last year. She still makes family dinners – and would not hesitate to prepare something for anyone who stopped by. Each day the arthritis robs a little more of her body, but never her spirit. I rarely hear her complain. When she does, I know she must be in agony, 0r she wouldn’t say a word.
I want to have her spirit, but not her arthritis, when I “grow old”. But I don’t think I can grow old as gracefully as her. I don’t think I will have the stamina to tolerate the pain, the hopelessness, and the slow, ebbing away of my body. I already feel somewhat hopeless. I know I have to downsize my grand adventure dreams to smaller, simpler goals such as making sure I exercise every day so I can face a set of stairs without fear. So much for hopes of long, glorious hikes in the mountains. My goals will now be a casual, relatively painless walk around our property.
Perhaps this is the adventure of aging – learning to accept the outwardly small accomplishments that are actually extremely monumental. Mom’s daily journey in life is far more brave than any extreme athlete who strives to climb to the top of a mountain peak, or the runner who just completed an ultra marathon. I am starting to believe that making dinner for a large family, or completing daily household tasks, or some days, simply getting out of bed when you hurt so bad that all you want to do is stay asleep. Or putting on a smile and not whining all day long about every ache and pain. Yep, I am starting to re-define strength, courage, and physical stamina.
Right now I say the words, but am not sure I have fully accepted this new reality. But I’m trying. Today, while taking part in my curling game I began to realize that I need to cherish each time I am able to slide down the ice, or throw a rock from the hack and come slightly close to making my shot. Pretty soon the arthritic pain I feel from activity will become greater than the benefit I get from curling – or other sports. So, I need to learn to take each stride for what its worth. Let my body learn to remember the feeling of gliding across the ice, of being part of a team success – of just being active. You never know when it will all evaporate.
So here’s to you, Mom. You have taught me that growing old is not for the weak of heart. May I have even a tenth of your strength and courage as I travel down the toughest adventure ever -growing old.
Up Yours Arthritis!!! You are my worst enemy. You are a nasty, evil being. You are a slow, insidious predator, seeping into my joints, painstakingly slowly cementing them shut. You are the quicksand – or “slowsand” of aging. You are worse than a hormonal junior high girl – on a downswing. And I should know – I am one of 7 sisters. Trust me, there’s nothing meaner than junior high girl.
I hate you for what you are doing to my country. You are robbing our healthcare system, sweeping in with a tsunami of need from us aging boomers as we seek help to outwit you. You are forcing a legacy of debt to our children, who will eventually have to pay the bill for our care. They will struggle to cope with you, but like our grandparents and parents, they will survive too. They will fight and fight and maybe even defeat you. If not them, then their children will find treatments that work, cures that last, and lifestyle changes that will keep you at bay.
I hate you for what you have done to my family. My husband’s knee – being eaten by you. My father’s joy in walking and biking – being ebbed away by you. My sister – crippled from your non-stop presence. My mother. You have robbed her of her physical balance and strength. You have even taken her body parts. But you are cunning. You crept so slowly that by the time she needed a new joint, she was deemed too old. So now she spends every minute in agony. Her movements are slow and guarded, her sleep is disrupted, and her mind is clouded by pain and painkillers.
You will eventually defeat her physically, but you can’t take away her soul. She wins there. Even at age 88, her body racked with non-stop pain, she won’t give in to you. You can’t beat her spirit. She still volunteers, she still cooks for her neighbours, she still makes treks up and down her stairs, no matter how long it takes her. She won’t give into you. No way will you win. She is going down fighting you. In that respect, she will win. Why wouldn’t she? She raised 7 teenage girls. Now that’s a survivor.
Mostly, I hate you for what you are doing to me. You are my OCD nightmare – the one that won’t go away – and step by step becomes reality. I feel you creeping in while I sleep, coaxing my joints into immobility, cementing them shut while I rest. I feel you trying to take all of me. You have taken some of my mobility, and causing me to move differently, taking away some of the activities I so loved to do. You will eventually defeat me physically. But like my mother, I won’t let you defeat me. I will keep trying to purge you from my system. I will try natural cures, medicines, and quack cures. I will try alternative therapies, physical therapy, massage therapy, and any other kind of therapy. I won’t quit. I am giving you warning – I won’t let you rob me of my soul.